Five Month Update x Mommy Thoughts

Now that I’m a mom, I constantly have this internal battle with myself regarding the massive changes with this new lifestyle of motherhood. It sickens me whenever I hear other parents say to those who have no kids that they shouldn’t have any kids period, as if their a curse from God. No bueno! I find myself having to remind my baby’s father about our great gift whenever friends ask us how we’re doing. Like, no, you don’t get to complain unless you were the one bearing the pains of birth!

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But I get so confused and upset sometimes because I want to complete my to do list on a daily basis. I’ve got some easy tasks and others that are a pain in the ass, like figuring out how to back up all your electronics (Sheeshh, as tech gets more sophisticated it also seems to be more complicated… or maybe I’m out of touch).

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But I get so confused and upset sometimes because I want to complete my to do list on a daily basis. I’ve got some easy tasks and others that are a pain in the ass, like figuring out how to back up all your electronics (Sheeshh, as tech gets more sophisticated it also seems to be more complicated… or maybe I’m out of touch).

The battle starts with the idea of being constantly present, in the moment with my baby girl. Watching like a hawk for the small details of her development, physical changes and guiding her to understand what’s around her… yet, I have other personal important things to do, goals to accomplish and dreams to fulfill.

Now that I’m a mom, its so ironic to me how I’m more sure and confident about my career and life and what type of action to take… how convenient. It doesn’t help either that I have this constant feeling like theirs a shelf life for my plans and that times being wasting by me choosing to pay attention to my daughters daily activities rather then my own. Then again, I argue, who is she if not the value I place on myself… ultimately, it’s a tug between who’s more important: my daughters development or the future me?…

Maybe its because Isabella’s my first baby that I’m feeling this way, but I haven’t heard many moms talking about this feeling or even express it. I’m literally learning as I go and trying to document it so I can share it with others, but if your a mom and have felt this feeling before, let me know in the comments below! How did you adjust? Did you find a helpful hand from family or did you have to buy it?

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Birth Story Video x Baby Bella

Finally, I’m getting this done!

Someday in the future, my daughter and I will watch this video together (especially during those inevitable rough patches in our relationship). This is the new way of keeping our own histories within the family. Maybe down the line we’ll have something more holographic and 3 dimensional like in star wars. But for now, its best to master the tools available to us at the moment, Lord only knows how complicated these applications already are!

Lastly, thank you for checking out my video! I look forward to your feedback so leave your comments below, much love and have a blessed day 😘

The New Normal: Motherhood

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This year couldn’t have started out on a more exciting yet terrifying note. once a major milestones achieved almost always another one soon follows, whether its positive or negative in my life. Sometimes those drastic changes feel almost like a piano falling on your head because it feels unpredictable and unexpected.

Motherhood, something I definitely wasn’t planning for going into 2016. It’s been a mix of many emotions and I don’t just blame it on the soup of extra hormones that charged through my body during pregnancy. I’m officially a mother and what does that mean besides the extra daunting and exciting times that will soon follow from this tremendous life change for my daughter and myself, only time can tell. The best thing I can do is to create a balance of being actively present in the moment, especially for those memorable little moments. While, simultaneously, looking out for what the potential future might hold for myself and what it’ll mean to my new family.

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It’s so incredible how every women is so completely different and yet the things that resonate with one another are the same things that make us stronger. I’m sure I’m going to have many more lessons and failures as I’m adjusting to this new life change and I hope that you’ll follow along with me in this journey. Thanks for reading && until next time, have a blessed day!

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New Years Love!

“N-now th-that that don’t kill me
Can only make me stronger”

Kanye West

Happy New Year && I wish you all much success && blessings for this new year!

As for myself, to say that its going to be the beginning of a new chapter is a complete understatement. In retrospective, 2016 marked the beginning of so many changes, from personal to career to family. The outcome of each experience has become a lesson which are indefinitely engraved in my heart and new attitude.

For most of 2016, I was pregnant! The year wasn’t half way over when I discovered I was going to be expecting my first child, a baby girl. Both of our families were excited when I told them the news. But for a while it didn’t seem real because there was nothing to show for most of my pregnancy until the last few weeks of my second trimester where my belly just popped, seemingly over night.

Currently, I’m 38 weeks pregnant & I’m due after the first week of the new year. Everyones in the waiting game with me and now more then ever I’m more anxious to begin motherhood. The little bit of time that I currently have with myself now, I’m treating it like gold. Reading, writing, editing, learning, planning, goal setting, everything (specially prescribed by my midwife lol).

I’ve been overhauling on baby supplies but also on books. To simply prep myself mentally for the challenges ahead. These two books were highly recommended to me by different peers and mentors.

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&&& with that said, I’ll leave you with a virtual box of roses from the Billion Roses Company thats all over instagram!

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Enjoy & let me know what you think of these books or other book recommendations you might have on the comment below!